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THE HEART TOO LONG SUPPRESSED: A Chronicle of Mental Illness



FROM THE INSIDE FLAP: Following a psychiatrist's prediction that it was only a matter of time before she committed suicide, something inside Carol Hebald clicked. Thirteen years later, the forty-four-year-old former actress threw her medication into the ocean, an act that would have panicked the dozens of doctors and friends who had witnessed her mental problems over three decades. Symbolic of her rupture with therapy, that act may have saved her life.


This beautifully crafted memoir tells of Hebald's spiral into mental illness from the late 1930s through the 1970s and the role hospitals and therapists played in that descent. She describes the frighening blur between reality and fantasy that fueled her childhood imagination, and recounts episodes of sexual and emotional abuse. By adolescence, acting had become both her life's ambition and a defense mechanism to create emotions she could not otherwise feel.


While pursuing a promising career on the New York stage in the 1950s and 1960s, Hebald, seeking someone to trust with her story, went from one therapist to the next. After a breakdown, subsequent hospitalizations, and struggles with misdiagnoses, medications, and shock treatments, one thing became clear: Hebald still had an inner voice. Learning to trust and exercise that voice through writing became central to her recovery.


Hebald's compelling memoir reads like a novel, with painful experiences described in bold, even humorous, detail. From abortion, to marriage, to gender bias, Hebald engages social issues confronting late twentieth century women and questions the treatment of mental illness. This is a disturbing yet inspiring tale of transcendence for anyone who has battled authority for the control of one's mind.





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